Nothing much

I have a boring life!!! Nothing much has been going on here the past few weeks. We get up and go to school come home and just live our daily lives. John hasn't worked much in the past week or so. They are between jobs and have a big one starting they are just waiting for the go ahead. Let's hope and pray that happens soon. But his job gets us through. As summer gets closer we become a little more nervous about July. I don't get paid for July and that makes me nervous. What if he doesn't work as much. Well I will definitly be praying for that and we have to have faith that God will provide for us and get us through. He has in the past.

I had a jewlery party yesterday it was really fun. I earned 220 dollars worth of free jewelry!!! Because Shonna helped me get ready so much for the party I let her have 50% of my take. so I got 110 and she got 110.

I finished the blanket. It turned out beautiful!! It is gorgeous. So my great niece will get it in May and I will be able to give it to her in person. Which makes my procrastination that much better because I will get to see her mom and her recieve it. I can not wait to see that little cutie!!! In May and I can't wait.

Well that is it for now. Take care
God Bless.

First day of Spring Break and I am on the couch. I am sick again!!! I hardly ever get sick and here I am sick the second time in a month. My head is throbbing and I am congested and have a sore throat. I have slept off and on all day! I just really feel horrible.

I called my niece for her birthday yesterday. I told her I wanted to do a Holly Hobbie blanket for her it is absolutely beautiful. She asked me Holly Hobbie was. Am I really that old? Today I feel like it. I couldn't believe she didn't know who Holly Hobbie was. I told her to google her.

Today the girls have spent most of their day at the park. Iam going to take them swimming later this week. It should be fun. I just hope I start feeling better before that.

Well that is all that is happening. Oh John got a raise. He has worked a month on the job and he now got a raise. Good for him. I am happy.

Well until next time.
Take Care
God Bless.

Frustrated!!!

This is going to be a total rant!! I am completely frustrated. Since I have found out that I am diabetic I have completely stopped eating sugar. No wine, no ice cream no sugary chocolate no nothing. I only eat sugar free anything!!! Well...you would think I would lose weight. I lost 7 and then NOTHING> I have lost nothing since then. WTH!!! I would think it would come off easily. I count my points everyday even though I am not really going to Weight Watchers. I stay within my points if not under everyday!! I HATE THIS!!! I have tried so very hard. I am still trying I haven't given up and I keep working on it everyday. But nothing has happened!!! The only thing that has worked is my blood sugar are COMPLETELY under control. They haven't been high since all of this started. But hey when am I going to get a break on weight? What else can I do? What else can I change. Yes, I am drinking water, I know that when through everybody's mind. I am seriously frustrated. Everyone tells me to be patient it takes time. It's been three weeks and still nothing. How long do I have to wait?? This is just riduculous. I am tired of working so hard and still nothing happening. I guess I am going to have break down and actually exercise of some sort. I did walk this week and still nothing, but then I popped my knee.

Last year my knee had a torn ligament. This week I was walking to the bowling alley with my class and my knee gave out on me. Since then my knee feels very unstable. It feels like it might go backwards. I don't want to the whole crutches thing again, nor do I want to go through all of that again. So I am staying off of it again as much as I can. Next week is spring break, so I will work on my blanket. So by my neice's wedding in Vegas it will be done. I PROMISE!!! :)

Well take care
God Bless.

Children

Today I would have been very happy to be childless. Today the girls had NOTHING nice to say to anyone including myself. It has been absolutely miserable!! It started the minute they walked out of their room. I am at the absolute point of going into my room and shutting myself in for the night until they go to bed. L was completely rude with me and finally John told her she was not to speak to me that way. I always feel he goes alittle easy on L. She gets so hateful with me and her sisters and he just is like oh huney it's alright. I want to throttle her and he just goes easy.

Today has been a difficult day for children!! I had to today send a child for the first time this school year to in school suspension. That always bothers me for some reason. He deserved I want an in home suspension but one I don't have to run!! I just don't want to be the heavy all the time. I just don't know how too not lose my patience when our children are acting like demon children. Today was one of those days. I hope tomorrow gets much better. Or I might just run away.

Take care
God Bless

Today was M's birthday party. It was so much fun. She had a blast!! They made her feel like a birthday star. We had pizza and then a wonderful chocolate cake. I only had a very TINY piece it was rich and good. Good for me though I didn't overdue it!!! Grandma McFarlen flew down here from Denver and surprised us. I had it figured out before she got down here she was coming and so did John but the girls were really surprised. They loved getting to see their grandma.

M got lots clothes and some money so since she didn't get many toys (like she needs them) we will take the money she got and go get her some. She will definitlty have fun shopping. I also love taking them shopping so maybe just her and I will go and have a mother-daughter day. Who knows.

Tomorrow our roommate is taking S for a day for her. S wants me to go too so I am going to leave John with the other two and we are going to spoil S for a day. L got to go last weekend and with M's birthday this weekend I am pretty sure that little ms. S is feeling pretty left out. She does well with it all though. It will be nice to spend the day with just her.

Well that is about our weekend. I hope you had a great one too.
Take care
God Bless.

Well we got some news about contracts today. I am safe this year so far!! Honestly I should be ok no matter what. The one thing it might be happening is that I might be looping with my kids this year. I would be ok with that this year. I really enjoy my kids and would like to stay with them one more year. Then after next year I would get another bunch of kids and loop with them from 1st. I don't know we shall see. We will see what happens. This is as of today but things change.

Today was Maranda's birthday. She had a great day and thoroughly enjoyed her birthday. Her name got announced on SBC that is our news at school and she was thrilled to hear her name. She was also very excited because she shares her birthday with her Papa. She loves her Nana and Papa she just wishes she could see them more and so do I. She got to call her Papa on the phone and she was just tickled about that. So Happy Birthday Maranda!!

Well that is my life this week. Nothing much going on here. Pretty boring.

Take Care
God Bless.

I just got done watching the movie Fireproof. What a powerful movie!!! I sat at the end and just cried. I realized that half of the time I go through the motions. I am a wife a mother a teacher and a christian. I am not very good at any of them. I do what is expected and enough to "get by." I don't want that any more. I have felt like this for a while and I change for a bit and then go back to old habits. In October I went to Crusillo which was a wonderful experience and then a few months later I am back to my old ways. I do it in lots of ways. I try hard and loose weight and then a revert back. Why do we always revert back to the way we were before when we don't like ourselves when we are that way? I just don't get it. I desire to be better, to make my children's and my husband's lives easier and yet I don't. Am I really that selfish? My children and my husband deserve better. I deserve to give better. My students at school deserve better and my God deserves better.

How do we make changes "stick" whether it is weight loss or just revamping who we are spiritually. How do we make these changes stick? I love my job, my family and my life and I want what is best for my children and my family. I guess the answer really is pray. Pray for the changes to work pray for God to take control of my life and of me and to help me quit going through the motions in my life. Help me to change for the better and for that change to become my life. In the movie the main character makes a life altering change and his life if just opened up to him. I want that overwhelming joy because I don't have that overwhelming joy in my life. This movie touched me deep down. I want changes to occur but like weight loss and things like that I can pray for the strength but I have to do the work. I have to make the changes. Today is a new day and a time for me to make the changes that need to be made. I ask for the strength to do that. I ask for God to help me that is my prayer. So if you are a praying person then add that to your list of prayers for me. Pray that I can keep the changes. I can make them I have before, it is sticking with them that is the hardest. Pray that I can make the changes stick in my life so that my family has the best life espeically my children.

Take care and God Bless

Busy Weekend

It was a busy weekend. My brother and his family came to Arizona to watch Spring training. It was fun we went to see the Giants and Mariners play. The girls got lots of autographs. The Giants lost but oh well it's only Spring Training. Then we went to Dave and Busters for dinner. The girls had a blast playing with their cousin Michelle. I can't believe how grown up my niece and nephew are. I blinked and one is in college and the other one is looking at colleges.

The vet called me on Friday they had a gift for me from BJ. BJ is my dog I had to put down last May. I got there and it was a paw print in clay. I walked out crying. Here her death was almost a year ago and I walked out crying hard at getting that gift. Then I picked up the mail and there was a reminder (from another vet) that BJ needed to go in for her yearly check up. I really miss her. I have never lost my own dog until BJ and it has been hard. I miss her and still tear up when I think about it all. Now I have a beautiful clay paw print to remember my dear B by.

I had my evaluation from my boss on Friday. I got 7 commendables (the highest marks you can get). He said I am an awesome dedicated teacher. It is nice to hear the compliments from my boss. Sometimes it is hard to be "professional" completely with my boss because we have become such good friends. I love working for him and we have a good time at work. The school I teach at has become my home. I was asked this weekend if there was a chance of me losing my job. Arizona is making huge cuts in Education and eventually it is going to hurt the children. I am not at a risk this year, but you never know next year. One thing though usually enough teachers leave and retire that really I should be ok no matter what. I just might not get to stay at Stevenson. I know one thing though Aaron would fight to keep me. One thing he wants me to get and use a smart board. That is alittle imitating. I think it would be cool but again I said it is intimidating.

Well that is what has been going on in my life. One more thing we celebrate my youngest daughter's 6th birthday. I can't believe my baby is going to be 6. Her birthday is Thursday and she is so excited because she shares it with her Papa. We are having her birthday on Saturday at Chuck E. Cheese. It should be fun.

Well that's it take care.
God Bless.
Laurie