A Great Birthday

My birthday was yesterday and it was absolutely wonderful!! It started on Saturday when Shonna and John threw me a wonderful surprise birthday party. It was so much fun. Then yesterday on my actual birthday my class went above and beyond. I got flowers and a stuffed animal. It was great they showed their love for me. Then John made me home made lasagna and garlic bread. It was great.

I got my test scores and they were GREAT!!! I had 100% movement and success for my class. I also found out the I might have some good news on my job here soon. Aaron my boss is really fighting for me!! If HR will listen to him and agree with him I will get to stay at Stevenson as a 3/4 ELD teacher which means I will get my class again!!! I will get to loop with them which is what I wanted anyway. So heavy prayers will for this would be great. Hopefully I will know in the next couple of days. They said that they are hiring back about 50 teachers I am number 20. I have hope. I really have hope now.

Well that is all.
God Bless
Take care.

The worst week yet!!

This week has been awful.I have been extremely down and just pissed off. Sorry but that's how I feel. I am pissed at God because I feel he brought us down and here and just like the people who wanted us down here the most he turned his back on us. I am hopeless and just pissed.

Well the week started out on Monday and on Monday at lunch I was eating a ham sandwhich and choked, literally choked on a piece of ham. I choked so bad that I couldn't breathe!! I could get the ham up a bit and then back down it went. I was panicked and there was no one around. The only thing I could think of is "I am going to die and it will be my kids who find me!!" I remembered hearing you could get it up by using a chair so that's what I did. I threw myself on the back of the chair and hucked the ham across the room and it hit the computer screen on my desk!! After I could breathe again I saw stars and flashing lights. Then I was sore the rest of the day especially my throat. Boy what a scary experience I have never choked like that again. What a terrible way to go!

Anyway my mood is a little lighter today. I am still mad, but I smilled a lot more today and cried a lot less. Maybe it's this whole 38 birthday coming next week. Maybe it's all tied to that I don't know...all I know is God and I aren't (right now) on speaking terms. I have prayed for a change, for John to find a job, and for me not to be laid off. He didn't answer or heard NONE of those prayers! I feel he doesn't listen to me. So I am mad and scared. What's going to happen come July will God let us go through that month with NO money and by August homeless? Anyway it has been a horrible week. It's almost over two more days and maybe next week will be better. Please pray!

God Bless
Take care.

Happy Easter

Last night we went to an Easter Vigil and it was the most moving and reflective service I have ever been too. This week my faith has suffered and after last night and today's Easter service I only need the faith of a tiny mustard seed. That about how big it is right now. We found out the job John had inteviewed for he didn't get. He got an email yesterday. We were a little disappointed but then again we are used to it.

Today was a fun Easter. The weather was beautiful probably in the high 70's. The Easter bunny brought the girls a slip in slide and they loved it. LeAnn and Maranda must have played on it for hours. They really had alot of fun. We have a lake in our back yard right now but they had fun.

I made dinner and had John's grandam and his aunt and uncle over for dinner. We had ham and salads and Shonna made Better then sex chocolate cake. It was awesome!! Dinner was great and I still am so very full. Well that was our Easter. I think we both missed our families alot today but I know for me today I didn't want to explain one more time what it going on with us. You know what I mean? I didn't want to explain about my lay off and John's job one more time. We have explained it to many times.

Anyway. Happy Easter.
He Has Risen...He has risen indeed!!!
God Bless
Have a great week.

Let me explain

I need to explain somethingsabout my blog from yesterday. I was pretty upset last night when I wrote that and somethings are pretty unclear. I still have a job through at least May and if my boss has his say through Summer School in June. My boss is almost 99% sure I will get hired back. That doesn't help this horrible feeling of sadness. There are 147 elementary school teachers that got laid off. When they start hiring back they will start with number 147 on that list I am 125. That means there are 21 teachers ahead of me to be hired. That is the good news more then likely I will have a job next year. The bad news is that I probably won't be at Stevenson. If Aaron (my boss) has anything to do with that he will get me back there. Yesterday I was very sad over the whole thing today Iam sad and a little pissed. Sorry that is the best word I can think of. There is a teacher who teaches next to me who was put on a growth plan this year. That means that she is on her way to being fired and here I get good evaluations and I am the one going!! Yep that pisses me off a bit. It also just pisses Aaron off.

Anyway I wanted to explain this a bit better. I know there were questions of what was going on. My mom doesn't seem to think I need to worry because I always get a job and yeah I do until the one time I don't. But one this is definitly for sure I can always substitute.

John has an interview tomorrow so if you guys could keep him in your prayers to get the job. We could use a bit of good news around this house because we are tired of being kicked while we are down.

Take Care
GodBless

The worst day of my life

You would think as a teacher your job would be safe. WRONG!!! I got laid off today. It was the longest worst day of my life. I have always been supportive for John through things like that but today I know how he feels. The weight of world is on my shoulders and I let my family down. Today has been awful. Honestly I don't have much to say tonight. I am just asking for prayers. John is working but not consistently so I am the sole consistent bread winner. Today I failed my family and it's not even my fault. My boss feels horrible....

So please keep my family in your prayers.

God Bless.
Take care.

Just another lazy Sunday

Well we actually got up and went to church today. It's Palm Sunday and the start of Holy week. Last year I was out during this week but this week I have to teach. I do have Friday off for Good Friday. We went out to brunch with GG and had a great time. We always do, then came home just kind of relaxed. We are getting dinner ready and ready to go back to work tomorrow. We are hoping John works tomorrow!!! He has been not working much for a couple of weeks now. Enough to earn some money but not enough to make alot. He had an interview with Echostar this past week and hopefully and interview with Intel. We are hoping that he gets one of those!! So those of you that actually read this and pray please pray really hard that he gets one of these jobs. Sometimes though it makes me wonder why some people get their prayers answered and with us we don't. what did we do to make our lives so hard?? Is it who I married? Well I could have married someone who beats me but makes millions or someone who ignores me and is never home. I don't have that, I have a man who loves me beyond belief and thinks I "almost" walk on water. So what is better? The beating definitly not!! I did find a man that is a great daddy to our daughters and someone who I would want my girls to marry. We don't always have such a hard time but yes it would be nice not to have to worry where the money is going to come from to pay what bills and if we are going to eat "good" this week or is it going to be a "hamburger" week you know what I mean. Anyway that is what Ithink about. I don't believe that money makes everything. I don't want to be "rich" I just want to be able to pay the bills and eat all in the same week. But we have a good, loving, strong marriage so maybe in a way we are rich.

Well work now I did find out this past week that it looks like i will be teaching 1st grade next year. Wow not sure how I am going to like that but we will see. It will be a change for me. I have taught 2nd for almost 10 years now. Can you believe it's been that long? It's been 9!! I can'tbelieve it either. I guess maybe a time for a change. I will be also teaching the Spanish speaker also. Like I said we will see. Wish me luck. I amalso teaching Summer School but I will be teaching 2nd for that. I will be good as long as I don't have one specific little 2nd grader I had for tutoring. If I have her for 3.5 hours a day I might strangle myself now and just put myself out of my misery.

Well that is all my ramblings for this week.

God Bless you on this Holy week
take care.