A rant and some good news

Well today first of all I am pissed. I got my hair cut and I HATE it. I took in a picture and it looks nothing like the picture. I wanted some cute hair cut and she scalped me. So everyone who sees me next week I know it looks horrid. Why can't people just tell you that they don't know how do the cut instead of saying oh yeah and then messin it up. Maybe in a couple of weeks it will be better. I just hate it!! We will see in a few weeks. My rant is why can't people just be honest. If you don't know how just tell me. i would have waited until I got to Oregon. I am just frustrated. And it's horrible to have a hair cut you hate.

Ok now the good news. Well everyone John is a working man. He got a job working for Solar Cat which is a company that makes Solar dishes for electric companies. He will be making 45,000 a year. We are just estatic!! WE are celebrating tonight. This has been a great day for us. He is starting as a tech and working into being an engineer.

I also found out yesterday I am going to be an Aunt also. My sis - n- law is pregnant so after I finish my niece's babies blanket I will be doing another one. I am hoping for a girl so I can do the Holly Hobbie blanket. I am thrilled so is John!!!

It's been a good day.

God Bless and Thank you Lord.
Take Care.

Counting the days

Today is Wednesday and that means I only have one week of Summer School left. I am excited about that. Even though this has been the best year of Summer School I have taught I am still ready to be done. The girls are done with Summer School and they go to VBS next week. They are looking forward to that. John will take them to VBS if he doesn't get hired from one of his interviews this week. Yep that's right interviews. On Friday he will have had three interviews. He had one with Sears on Monday, tomorrow he has one with Solar Cat and then he has one on Friday with some avionics company. With Solar Cat they had 60 resumes for one position and the guy told John he was going to interview about 7 and they ended up calling John for as one of the 7. Let's keep our fingers and toes crossed.

Well me and the girls leave for Oregon in 9 days (yes I am counting). I haven't been there in a couple of years. I am so looking forward to some time away from the Valley of the Sun. We have had a mild summer so far but it is still pretty warm. I am looking too being by the ocean and just having fun with the girls. The girls are really looking forward to going. Sarah said today she couldn't wait to meet my great niece (the baby) their second cousin. We are going to be gone about three weeks. actually more then three weeks almost a month. It's going to be fun.

My Thoughts

Well it's been a year since John got laid off from his job. It's been a difficult year for both of us. You hear how I feel about the whole thing but does anyone realize what it does to John? I sit here and watch him night after night pour over phone books and internet sights trying to find anything. I have even taken the reins on some and applied at Walmart, Sam's,7-11 and other gas stations. He never gets a call. Think, how would it make you feel if every time you interviewed you got told you weren't good enough or nothing at all? I watch him disappear a little each time he interviews and then watch his sails go down when he doesn't get the job. For men being able to provide for their families is all tied into their self esteem and how they feel about being a "man." For a while now I have provided for our family. It doesn't bother me at all. Anyone who cares to read this, think of it in my way and answer these questions. Would it to be better with someone who can give me everything I want or need and be treated poorly, and that person is never at home and the girls don't have much of a father, or would it be better to be with someone who loves me completely and is there 100% for our girls. Someone who is a father and a wonderful spoiling husband. Sure I will admit I would love to have both but right now I don't and I am ok with that because my emotional needs are met. We have to let some things slide because we don't have the money and sometimes bills have to wait but we always take care of things.

Another thing to think of before I sign off. I take care of us finacially no surprise there. If that's the case if I didn't love, truly love, my husband would I still be here? I don't need him to help support me, I can take care of myself. So, I am here because I want to be. I am also teaching my girls to be strong women and that it's ok for them to support their families. Times are changing and it's ok for a wife to take care of their families. It's also nice knowing that if anything happens and our marriage goes bust I can leave and be ok on our own. I like knowing that. I like knowing I can take care of me and my girls. So if anyone is worried about our situation, I won't lie, I am too. But know this, this is not John's fault and he is trying like Hell to find a job. I also want to say that I support him, he loves me and he loves his girls. He is a great husband and I don't think less of him because of this. I hope no one feels that way. He is my best friend and I wouldn't change that for someone who made millions.

I have said what's been on my mind. I guess this is should be called the world according to a wife, mother and then a teacher. This is something that has been on my mind for a long time and I just needed to finally get it off my chest. So anyone who is worried that I am here because I can't leave that's not the case. I am here because I love John and I want to be here. Is it hard? Yeah sometimes, lately a lot, but John and I will see it through together. We will get it done together.

Thanks for listening to my rambling.
God Bless
Take Care

Summer Life

Well things have slowed down here a lot since it is summer. I am teaching Summer school I have eight children so it's slow but I hope I am making difference. I am looking forward to my trip to Oregon (thanks to the generosity of my sis). We are leaving the last Saturday in June. The girls ae thrilled!!! As soon as they found out that we were going to be able to go they started packing. Too cute right?? They can't wait to see Nana and Papa and their cousins and oh yea Aunt Diana too. Their words not mine. We are planning to stop at my older sister's house and see my niece and that beautiful daughter of her's again. The girls will get to meet her for the first time. They are soo excited.

John did call Sears yesterday and he didn't get a no. Well he didn't get a yes either (yet we hope). The woman took his last name looked something up and said (and I quote) "It is being processed on our end and waiting for management approval." We are hoping that means he got it because they didn't say no and he didn't get an email saying they weren't interested which he has with all the other postitions he has applied for. So keep up with those prayers that this means good news. We could use it!!

Well that's about all that is happening in my life right now. Things are slow and we are just going day by day.

Take Care
God Bless.
Laurie